So Close,Yet So Far Away!!

  This morning I ran 5K before 6am, and before my 12.5 hour shift!
I feel proud and accomplished. I never thought I would say I ran over 3 miles. If you would have asked me last year to even run a mile I would have took a puff of my newport and laughed. (before I was pregnant of course) Yes I was a smoker, once a heavy drinker, and I never once atempted to run for the sake of running. I have come a long way and its sad it took having a baby and getting fat to realize that I wasnt healthy.
 
I am 19 lbs down and trying to go for another 12 lbs. I feel that I have come a long way in these 3 months but I also feel like these last lbs will be a bitch! Im still counting calories, well for the most part. I have been bad more times then a few, but hey I feel you need to sometimes so you dont lose your freakin mind! I feel good about where I am at but I still think about where I need to be. It has gotten a lot easier to wear close and look in the mirror, but I want to feel awesome! I want to look as good as I feel when Im done accomplishing a goal like my 5K.  I will get there people! I am determind and drivin.

I do have to say it is still hard to find time sometimes with long shifts and a fmaily to take care of. I try though, I feel guilty about my 2 break days I had. But i think about when I had my days off and I was doing more then one workout in a day. I found time in the morning to run and do other cardio for about 30 to 40 mins, then ride road bikes with my husband in the evening for about 40 mins. I am trying to get to that 20 lbs lost. the Junkie gals decided that we were going to treat ourselves to a cupcake for that celebration. I don't mean just an old cupcake either. I mean the fancy melting your mouth, so sweet your teeth will fall out cupcake :) I loooove me some cupcakes!

So the fight continues and we still push on. We will be happy with ourselves and we will be proud no matter what because we worked hard for it! I am determind to make next summer my bitch!! Watch out! :)