The Little Engine That Could.

I think I can I think I can. I will get there.

Today we started insanity, wish us luck. It is no joke!

Today I took my first day picture for insanity 9 lbs down from my first picture in the last blog I wrote.

I have already been sore from circuit training we found out pintrest. Which btw is my new obsession!
There you will find insrirational photos, workouts,diddys and blogs. Its pretty much amazing.
I actually found great recipies for fruit an veggie smoothies, which inspired the one I am drinking now.

Bananna
frozen magnos
oj
apple
spinach

It is actually really good and great for you.

Keepin it fresh.

Constant Battle

I have never ever been the skinny girl. I have constantly had to watch what I ate, how much of it I ate, and how often I ate it. The shit gets old! I always would give up. What can I say, this girl loves her some food!!

The smallest I was, which I am sad to say, was in high school. That glorius place where I met my fellow junkie. Who would have thought we would have our own weight loss blog?!?!?!? LOL!!

If I can actually figure out how to post pictures again I will show you my high school picture but for now I will explain it.

I wore a size 11 in high school. I have an ass, PERIOD. There is absolutely no way around it. It sticks out but isn't wide. And boobs, yep I have those too. At this very moment they are smaller than they were in high school, kinda sucks but shit happens.

I have always had the belly, it was never horrible but I have never had the flat stomach. Always the pudge and a little muffin top.

I started dating my husband the summer before our junior year started and I was at my smallest. No cellulite on my legs, no spider veins, and no damn stretch marks!!! Even then I wouldn't wear a bikini in public without having my arms crossed to hide it. Now I want that body!!

As all relationships go, you get comfortable with each other and you gain weight. That's exactly what I did folks. Not a huge amount but there was more weight. So here we go with the battle with losing weight. For some reason, the term DIET means eat everything you possibly can, to my brain!! Looking through my pictures from 2009 and 2010 I needed to lose a few pounds, but it wasn't like "bitch, when is that baby due?" type of weight loss.

Then, I see my wedding pictures. May 2010, needless to say I was a month pregnant in those (I had no idea I swear), I looked awful. The sad thing is that I had actually lost 5 pounds!!! The double chin was there and it honestly bums me out seeing those pictures, I look happy but I don't look my best. My wedding dress was a size 14 and I am curious to put it on again.

So the pregnancy happens, let me tell you I was a biggun. A week before my Livy's delivery, I was 207 pounds!! But whatever right? I was eating for 2. Give birth, blah blah blah, lose some weight, blah blah blah. Jump on the scale I am 215 pounds!!! WTF?!?!?! Holy balls batman we have a HUGE problem here!!!

I only found one picture from that time period (again, will post these later) and holy cow, literally!!! I felt so unattractive that I am sure my husband didn't want me. I know I know, "it's not true."  I needed the confidence and I just didn't have it anymore and I know that men find self-loathing and complaining about your own appearance as such a turn-on... *rolling eyes.*

I lost some weight, and then I quit. I got down to 180 doing everything by myself, and then lost my motivation. Then we make it to the present... my junkie and I are reunited and we are kicking ass and dropping pounds!!

The only difference is that there is someone here to push me to do it. I couldn't thank her enough. She is a bitch and I love it. She has to yell at me because I apparently wouldn't listen to myself yelling to get my lazy ass up. I cannot stress this enough, if you can find someone that will be dedicated with you and work hard and motivate you, that person will become the biggest weight loss tool you have.

The difference in these 7 weeks isn't "flab to fab" by any means, but we are smaller and we are lighter and we are healthier. The battle isnt over but we are getting farther in this skirmish. Hahahahaha I like that word.


'Til next time, find your person

Step Into My Shoes.

      To better know me an my position I thought I'd show you where I am coming from.

This was me about a year ago before I got pregnant and I was probably under 110lbs.

I started modeling a few months before these pictures were taken,so I was just starting to get the hang of being comfterable infront of a stranger and half naked in the streets of Richmond city.


 I have always been a smaller framed girl and I never had to work out. I was gifted with a fast metabolism. If i gained weight and knew it I would stop eating fast food and eat real food an drop the weight without a single workout. Now that I look back on it I would love to kick my own ass. Although I was small I was also self conscious, and what girl isn't. But at the time and when i was modeling I felt accomplished, I felt like the pictures made me feel pretty. I felt like when I was behind the camera I could be whatever I wanted at that moment.
Shortly after, and I mean like a month or so after, I found out I was pregnant. I wasn't upset about it, I knew things would change. They did more then I thought they would. I lead a active pregnacy, I biked, I went target shooting every weekend, I walked ( which untimatly helped pull a back muscle) I didn't just sit on my ass an get fat. I was active and got fat!
I ate cupcakes my the dozen and icecream daily. I always ate whatever I wanted but I never wanted sweets all the time, I would rarly go for icecream or eat desert.
So pregnacy was unpleasent painful and gross. Don't get me wrong I loved knowing I was carrying a child both my husband and I created out of the amazing love an pasion we have for eachother, but it wasnt glamerous anymore. Shit got real! I was probably 65 lbs maybe more over the weight I started at. I was 113 lbs when I found out I was pregnant at 6 weeks.
So after my beautiful baby was here....

(Kingston at 2 months)

This was it....

I was looking in the mirror thinking "OMG get me out of this fat suit!!"

I was never over the weight of 120. I had no idea what to do how to dress this body I was not forced to look at everyday and obsesse over every second. I felt hopeless, they say breast feeding will help you drop the weight. Thats bullshit! I gained it. Not much, but still!
After week 5 of breast feeding for several reasons I stopped. By then I knew it was time to work out hard an get my act and body into gear. I started working out with my fellow Junkie for motivation and support. Her being a mom and wife she understood.
When I first started working out, I was sore all the time I thought I must be doing something right if I feel the muscles growing. But I seemed to be gaining still. I felt hopless, discuraged, and still fat!
It has been very hard for me. I felt like I was looking my best before all this,comfortable in my skin for the most part. And now that I wasn't losing I was so far from what I use to be. I thought,"how will my husband find me atractive?"  "I am discusting!!" Stretch marks and tears and thoughts of my pre pregnacy body hunted my thoughts daily.

It has been 7 weeks since I started working out and 12 weeks since baby, just in the past 3 weeks I have been seeing the most results. I am most certian that stressing about it wasn't doing me any good. When I started counting calories and finding a goal to off set my " just lose weight" mentality I finally saw changes.

I try my best to work out everyday, mostly its 6 times a week.  In the past 3 weeks I have lost 9 lbs and seen a big difference to what I was. My skin is slowly tightening up and my stretch marks are becoming less visable.
 No where near where I want to be or where I will be,I am determined to stay working out to hopefully be better looking and more toned then I ever was. I want to set a good life example for my son.
I want to live a long happy healthy life. And my husband and I enjoy our workouts together too. Its nice to know that he too is sharing goals with me to be more healthy and try new things. I cant wait till out little buddy can join us on a bike ride or run.


              
                                     Keeping my head up and my tummy sucked in. ;)

Push it. Push it real good!!!

Another night shift almost done. Excuse my ranting please, I get a little random at this time of night/ morning.

So day 2 of jogging in a row. This time I didn't have my junkie by my side pushing me to do it. I was pushing my little sister to keep going. In my recent jogs, especially with this hotter than the devil's balls weather, I have notice that if u pick out small distances to make it to, you will push yourself farther. At least my dimwitted brain doesn't realize it is the same damn distance in the end. But if it works, it works!!
Apparently, my happy ass was feeling so good about herself that after this jog I would mow the grass. I did that for 30 minutes. The reason for this being that I wanted to fill my daughters kiddie pool so we could go for a dip later on, but the grass was too tall so I didn't want to be walking through that damn jungle.

Soooooooooooo, I did the mowing and started filling up the pool, made lunch did laundry, hung the laundry, put the princess down for her nap, and decided on another body wrap. Now as was mentioned before u have to sweat when u wrap. So what better way to sweat like a whore in church, than to go outside in the middle of the day during the summer.

Wrapped up like a damn leftover sandwich I was outside mowing the grass once more!!! Then it hit me... I have to work tonight!!!! I am crazy!!! Literally crazy.

By the way, we never got in the pool because it started raining. :( blah blah blah.

Running up hill sucks, I forgot to mention that one. We had to do up hill 2 times both ways.
Apparently it did something, I am down another pound.

Let's see how it goes for me tomorrow, well today.

Keep it up!!!

Sincerely,
Focused

PAC MAN! .............*.......



                  Well we all know what its like to be in a marriage or relationship and to eat like your partner. Possibly like pac man an eat everything in site!

 This past weekend I found my self on a food-venture in Richmond with my husband. And note to reader, my husband loves his food! So we both decided not to watch what we eat and try new things. Well I tried some mexican inspired bean burger thingy (not my wisest choice) and him a luthern burger... for those of you that dont know... that is the best thing to ever touch your mouth! It is a burger with two patties, bacon and a krispy cream doughnut as the bun!!!! YES a fucking doughnut! it was awesome! I only had a bite but OMFG!               Anywho.. im suppose to be on a diet.

                 Needless to say i mess up sometimes and go over in calories but I am steady working out, atleast 5 days a week and watching what I eat more times then none. With my obsession with my calories counter apps and my focus on the 5K in October I have manager to trim down a lot. Not where near where I want to be but I am pround to say the numbers on the scale have finally stayed moving after weeks of working hard. Trying to lose weight after having a baby is not fucking vacation! 

        These days I jog at least a mile everyday if not add walking to that miles after or a few abs here an there. The focus on the running part as kept my mind strong and my focus not so much on beating myself up about the weight I have to lose. I would say that goal I set for myself was the best decision yet.

 

             Even though I have moments of weakness... like we all do, im gettign there slowly and learning to make healthier choices.

Feelin It

I am really feeling good about myself now. My clothes are fitting better. Some of the shorts I had before I got married (2 years ago) is hanging really lose. My man pants as my junkie buddy would call them. It legitimately looks like I took a shit in my shorts that is how baggy they are now.

Today I did 10 minutes focusing on my abs... 1 minute crunches, then 1 minute each crunches focusing on each oblique, bicycle crunches, vertical leg crunches, reverse crunches, opposite leg crunches, and a 1 minute plank.
Then 10 minutes focusing on my leg.
And 2 10 minute Tiffany Rothe videos. YouTube her, she is really good. I did the boxer babe and the waist slimming or something like that.
It may not hurt today but stick to it you will be sore tomorrow I promise.

Anywhore, I feel the need to boast about how I feel. I feel lighter I feel smaller, of I am I have no fucking clue. I will weigh myself next Tuesday. Unless I happen to buy a scale. Which would be really smart.... So yea I am just going to go buy one.

Well my weight watchers Taco Soup is calling my name (only 209 calories for 1 1/2 cups). It's delicious and gives you the farts like none other. Still oh so yummy. Google the recipe if you want. But my husband (the worlds pickiest eater) likes it. He adds cheese and sour cream, and he uses tostitos scoops to eat it. Many more calories, I know.

Sincerely,
Finally feelin it

Droppin Droppin Droppin!!!!

I have been doing that body wrap that was in one of the previous posts and it really does work. I have lost 2 inches in my waist alone in 3 days!!!!

My calorie counting has gotten way better and I have been tracking everything with my LoseIt app!!! Quick rant here... I don't understand at all why a damn chocolate chip cookie is less calories than a damn banana!!! WTF!!!! I find this ridiculous!!!! Apparently you can lose the weight as long as you stay within your budget. Still super dumb to me!!! Rant over

So I have been slacking on my working out (shame on me I know) but my junkie and I plan to get back on the high horse and work ourselves down to our goal.

Tomorrow I am going to make this detox water shit that I found on pinterest. Apparently it is supposed to make you drop weight like crazy!!! But it is supposed to speed up your metabolism too. If it gives me results I will post the recipe here and tell you how and what I did.

Speaking of which, go to Walmart and buy Farewell Cellulite an Vitamin E oil. Try to get the highest IU in the oil. The highest we got was 12000 I think. But what you need to do is put a quarter size amount of the Farewell in ur hand and like a dime size of the vitamin E oil and rub it on the areas u want to lose inches and tighten up. Then suck your tummy in and wrap tight with plastic wrap. Next you need to sweat and sweat and sweat for an hour!!! And presto!!! I have lost a few inches an my stretch marks have faded a lot!!! I hate those little bitches!!!
My husband, when I showed him my belly after my second roast, said my belly button looked like and old lady's vagina. Any suggestions on how to fix a wrinkly belly button area?!?!
Well that's all for now. Good luck with the wrap!!!

Sincerely,
Cookie craver

Burrito Mommies

There have been these miracle wraps out and people are losing inches in just an hour. But I don't have $40 to spend on just one wrap. So my partner discovered a DIY on instagram. After our jog/walk this morning we headed over to our neighborhood Walmart to buy vitamin e oil, farewell cellulite and some plastic wrap.

So here I am sitting covered with blankets sweating out all of "the toxins" that are in my body for an hour. Because that is what you're supposed to do. I am hoping I lose freaking inches in an hour! I measured myself before the wrap. I will unveil those numbers when I release my girth after this hour.

Sincerely,
Wrapped and sweaty

Slap You In The Gut Realization!

   Don't you just hate it when people are right?

Lets just say my life hasn't been an all you can fucking eat buffet here recently. I have been conciously calorie counting and mindfully eating better choice foods.And because of that dropped 7 lbs!
 But this weekend I had pizza Hut, and even though I was still in my calories range for the day I felt the repercussions of it!
After our night shift, Which BTW Im not suppose to work anymore!!!!!!!!! &*^%$#@#!
 After our grave yard shift we decided to go along with our 5K training an go for a jog Sunday morning, well thats when my bad choices hit me. The day before, we effortlessly jogged to our best yet. This time I felt sluggish, heavy footed and like it was impossible. A total 180 to how we had felt before the bad eating.
 
So I think it is safe to say, bad food choices does and will effect your workouts. So back to low calorie healthy meals for this gal, because I will be running and in the best shape of my life come October!



                                                      Stay Clean,
                                                          Lean Mean Mommy Machine!

Nothing but water

Here is my update.
At the beginning of this junkie alliance I weighed 168. We pushed our jiggly-selves to get off of the couch and sweat. My eating habits really didn't change until I really started to pay attention and actually see results in my progress pictures.
I started to lose focus because I wasn't losing any weight!!! I was putting on pounds.
I have noticed, since I started drinking more and more water and avoiding fast food, the pounds have been coming off.
I have a 24 oz tumbler that I keep with me at work and I will go through at least 5 in a 12 hour shift. Needless to say I am constantly peeing but it is a key part in my weight loss.
I am pretty happy to say I am down another 2 pounds. And I am looking forward to jogging with my junkie in the morning when we get off.
You really learn to love it.

Sincerely,
Water Hog

Running on empty

I don't know if any of you work nights, but if you do then you understand how hard it is to stay committed to a diet/ exercise/ sleep routine.

This is my second night and it is always the toughest. Did you know that absolutely nothing is open in the middle of the night other than your local Walmart, gas stations, and the artery clogging dining establishments.

In all honesty the thought of greasy, post- frozen food makes me want a damn cucumber!!!!! Those are delicious especially when you slice them and let them soak in vinegar over night. Now I really want some cucumbers.

As you all read in my fellow junkie's previous post about the 5k, we are starting our training tomorrow, well today. I am 100% sure that I will find the motivation to run that 5k and all of its obstacles because the undead will be chasing us. I don't want my brains eaten and I see this as a dress rehearsal for our impending zombie apocalypse.

As our workouts get harder and our eating gets even better, the numbers on that demon machine have begun dropping. I did put on 5 pounds when we first started working out together for shit's sake!!! Now final-freaking-ly those 5 pounds are gone and so are my Ds.

In other news, another 4 pounds are off and I am creeping ever closer to the creamy deliciousness that is in the promised land. ColdStone will be mine and it will like it!!! Only 6 pounds to go and we get our ice cream date!!!

Learn to love the sore!!!

Sincerely,
Night Owl

The Working Mom!

                  Now wouldn't it be nice to be one of those stay at home moms???
Well, DUH!  
But no, I am back to work and working on staying motivated on my eating habbits an finding time an energy to still work out after a long 12.5 hour shift sometimes. It's not easy! I promise the time is worth it. I battle myself everyday to stay motivated and stay on track.
   I recently made a few goals for myself, and one being my fellow junkie and I are training for a 5K in October. I am excited because I needed to push for something.Plus I can't run! HAHA
I have always wanted to be one of those people that are like, "yea so I run for fun." Who the hell does that and loves it? Well, I am making it my personal goal to do so. So wish me luck!
     Also I am calorie counting now an staying on track! best invention ever...the LOSEIT app. Everyone should download it! I have found myself obssesed with it! The app acutally works and helps you watch what you eat. It has also motivated me to work out because I can eat more if I workout and gain my calories back.
I am getting closer to losing 30lbs with my Junkie/workout partner, my app, and having goals!

Stay motivated bitches!


                                                                      Sincerely,
                                                                         Kick Ass!

Cold Stone anyone?

After a long motivation struggle, and days of unnecessarily hot weather, my fellow junkie and I have decided on a reward for reaching our first 10 pounds lost... Cold Stone.

Today we did a lot of cardio and as always a Tiffany video. Hey, what can I say, it fits us.
We found a Victoria's Secret model workout video and it is taught by Gizelle's personal trainer. It is pretty good it is only 10 minutes long but u definitely feel it.

The children were very uncooperative today. It was constant stop and go with those 2. But we managed to get 30 of cardio and 30 working on our core done.

6 mile walk in the morning... Should be a piece of cake since it won't be in the triple digits.

Sincerely,
Ready to relapse

A small pat on a Junkie's back

I am feeling pretty good about myself. I ate very healthy today and I did a lot of exercise. I even did a 1 minute plank!! It nearly killed me but I still did it!!!

I have come to realize that my motivation is telling my partner in crime what I have done. So here is to my support!!!! Raise your glass to my fellow Junkie Trina!!!

Honestly if it wasn't for her stubborn ass and her bitchy nature I wouldn't be the size I am now. I love this girl!!

My recommendation to you readers... You need a good friend, one that you are very comfortable with, one that will push you, one that doesn't care about your whining. One who can dish back what you're giving out!

Sincerely,
A crutch to stand on

Confessions Of A 23 Year Old Drama Queen.

      So the day was a Saturday, the past one to be a matter of fact. I was all ready for a mommy dady day away from baby (for the first time.) Our plan was to Ride the 919, My favorite bike, to KD for a day at the water park. I was totally siked because the bike is special time for us.
 Well we got a late start first off, then my fit over a bathing suit didnt help!

Needless to say we eneded up not going. I feel guilty I had a big part of it because of my insucurities. I have never been 30lbs over weight and I have never had to purchase a tankini. To me a tankini was a foreign object that I hoped I would never have to experience. I made him take me to try some on, that didn't go as planned. I freaked out an ended up not buying one and we never made it to the water park.....

The thought of me, in such a public place, walking around like my size wasn't the most heavy thing on my mind drove me crazy! And lets face it, who would you rather see in a swim suit? The fat insucure chick or the hot, tan, toned chick you wanna punch? An I use to be that girl and it eats at my soul everyday!
So here I am having a pitty party yet again.

I promise to sack up and get over it! I am going to the water park 4th of July, and I will wear my fat suit with pride! kinda...


                          Okay my rant is over.


                                                 Thanks for listening to my crap, and a special thanks to my husband who has to deal with me day in and day out. He's a trooper and I plan to make up for all my whining with a hot toned body in a few months!
 
                                                                 

Carb Zombie! attack!

      
                 Im sure you've heard if you eat heavy carb meals or empty carbs you will feel sluggish.
Well...
YUP! I am working now and I have discovered the mid day crash! When your coffee has run its course and your looking to lunch as a pick-me-up.
DONT look at that hefty, delish wrap filled with cheese an crap!

 Today I indulge in a 600 calorie lunch and felt like walking dead 30 minutes later. Boy, do I feel stupid and regret it. Not only have I eating most of my calories for the day in one meal, but I really lost all my energy for the afternoon. My suggestion and personal goal for myself is to eat small snacks like apples and grapes till lunch, and make  healthy choices leaving my stomach full but not about to pop.


                                                  Yours Truely,

                                                          Carb Eating, Workday Zombie

1 Junkie Down

Our apologies for not posting in a while...

Trina has returned to the life-sucking thing we like to call work. Luckily our jobs only require us to work 3 days a week but still. We could be working off our asses not working our asses off.

We have been working out solo these past few days and so far so good.

My bug decided that we didn't have anything at the house she wanted for breakfast so we walked to the store and walked back. Now that she is asleep I plan on getting my next workout in.
My focus is abs... That is probably an everyday thing to be completely honest.
I wore a bikini for the first time yesterday. Don't worry... U will not have to see that awful site until I am smaller. I felt very, very lumpy. I didn't go out in public, it was just to my daughters kiddie pool to even out my color.
I feel like a Barbie doll, I don't know if anyone else has noticed but barbie's legs and arms are a different color than her body. Well that is kinda what I look like except my shoulders and arms are super tan and the rest of me is pasty pale white.
I plan on wearing shorts by the end of this month so I need to look a consistent color now.

My partner in crime and I will be reunited tomorrow morning when I get off work. 3 mile walk to start then tee will play the rest by ear.

Sincerely,
Lonely and I know it