So the day was a Saturday, the past one to be a matter of fact. I was all ready for a mommy dady day away from baby (for the first time.) Our plan was to Ride the 919, My favorite bike, to KD for a day at the water park. I was totally siked because the bike is special time for us.
Well we got a late start first off, then my fit over a bathing suit didnt help!
Needless to say we eneded up not going. I feel guilty I had a big part of it because of my insucurities. I have never been 30lbs over weight and I have never had to purchase a tankini. To me a tankini was a foreign object that I hoped I would never have to experience. I made him take me to try some on, that didn't go as planned. I freaked out an ended up not buying one and we never made it to the water park.....
The thought of me, in such a public place, walking around like my size wasn't the most heavy thing on my mind drove me crazy! And lets face it, who would you rather see in a swim suit? The fat insucure chick or the hot, tan, toned chick you wanna punch? An I use to be that girl and it eats at my soul everyday!
So here I am having a pitty party yet again.
I promise to sack up and get over it! I am going to the water park 4th of July, and I will wear my fat suit with pride! kinda...
Okay my rant is over.
Thanks for listening to my crap, and a special thanks to my husband who has to deal with me day in and day out. He's a trooper and I plan to make up for all my whining with a hot toned body in a few months!
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